A Day Late & A Dollar Short

I've committed the unspeakable....yet, I choose to speak of it anyway. Yesterday was my blog birthday and I didn't blog.  It isn't this particular blogs special day but I started blogging one year ago on August 21, 2009 over at Searching.  Some of my best work remains over there and some of my best work from that blog had to be removed.  This blogging business has been quite the journey.

I began blogging at the urge of my husband to quit complaining about my actual job and do something to change it.  So I did.  The blog was a place to vent.  An avenue with which to try and make the decidedly unfunny, funny.  At first I made no commitment to writing on a regular basis and only felt I was 'good' if I was particularly inspired.  That has since changed and as such I feel I've grown as a writer.  The blog soon took on a bit of a life of it's own.  I've said it before and I've said it again, but it's mine.  It's been so long since something was so singularly mine.  I am possessive, protective and proud.

This has not come without cost. I have made some rookie blogger mistakes.  Like not choosing to be 100% anonymous.  Why is this a mistake?  I lost my job.  I blogged about work.  No I didn't name my place of employment or any of my co-workers nor did I say what my former profession was, but my name was on the blog.  With a little digging that would've all been easily found out.  Do I regret it?

Yes.

No.

I regret that I may have hurt some people's feelings that I didn't intend to.  I regret not recognizing and accepting and actively seeking a way out of a job that I was no longer good at nor was it good for me or my family.  I regret putting our family's financial well-being at risk. 

I am happy.  I can listen to my family talk to me again.  Confused?  At my previous job I would be so drained, tired, frustrated and physically and emotionally spent, there were days I didn't have anything left for the five people who need and deserve my attention most.  That's not fair.  I have received what I can call nothing other than beautiful support from my friends.  I have found something new to do that I am very excited about.  That is all I will say because I'm not putting this opportunity at risk. I have learned my lesson.

My blog has brought me even more support and more friends.  People whom I have no idea what they look like or for the odd one, what their real names are.  It doesn't matter. This is it's own little community and one that I am proud to be a part of.

So all that being said, Happy Belated Blog Birthday to Me!